I’ve long been open about my struggles with depression, suicidal thoughts, and even making attempts to end my life.
When asked how I’m doing, I’ve always replied, “𝐈’𝐦 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠,” if I wasn’t feeling on top of the world.
Over the last few weeks, I’ve been emotional, sometimes to the point of tears. There’s been no single obvious cause; the residue of recent healings, energies building up to the full moon, Autumn, and Shamballah, I’ve applied for my next big step in my progression with the Modern Mystery School, am I doing too much, and I not doing enough… I caught my mind looking for reasons.
As my mind went to work, I sensed that old reliable first answer,
What if I’m not struggling?
What if that is simply a chronic answer
What if I’m growing, changing, and evolving?
W͙h͙a͙t͙ i͙f͙ I͙ a͙m͙ w͙o͙r͙k͙i͙n͙g͙ e͙x͙a͙c͙t͙l͙y͙ a͙s͙ d͙e͙s͙i͙g͙n͙e͙d͙?
I’m letting things go, moving beyond my past, integrating years of growth and healing.
Is there some habitual answer or thought that you’ve outgrown but haven’t realized it yet?
Do you have a go-to answer when someone asks how you are, that might rarely be accurate?
Since you are human, you probably do.
About The Author
Andy Grant is a best-selling author, award-winning speaker, Transformational Energy Coach, Healer, and suicide prevention activist. He holds certificates in Positive Psychology, the Enwaken Coaching System, Infinite Possibilities, and more.
Andy teaches workshops ranging from energy tools to ebook publishing. He is the founder of Real Men Feel, a movement encouraging men to come out of the emotional closet. He also facilitates monthly men’s groups and is a contributor to the GoodMenProject. As a survivor of multiple suicide attempts, Andy knows how low we as human beings can feel. He is committed to helping people realize how magnificent life is meant to be.
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